As I write this, there is a very powerful full thunder moon shining through my window, lighting up the sky. It’s driving people wild. We are mesmerized through this entity, this gravitational force that pulls us up and down again. Surfers live for this chaos. They are patiently waiting, psyching and amping themselves, ripping the waves and riding the breaks. It never ceases to amaze me, this full moon flow.
They say nothing in life is forever, right?
So you ride the waves when the waves come. You don’t wait until they have passed and then try to paddle out. You have to trust that everything will work out for the best. You must let go of what is no longer serving you. Just go. Push yourself to where only you can see. You must serve your own purpose and know your true purpose, above all else. I can only feel what I believe in, and in turn, use those intentions to get where I want to be. Otherwise, I’m just losing valuable time towards living my life the way I want to. This is where the basics come in to play.
If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change – Wayne Dryer
Right now the energy is so strong, it’s practically forcing us to unveil . At some point you can not ignore what is staring you right in the face. If the moon is doing one thing, it’s blessing us. Even in the darkest night, it’s gleaming, bringing us to light. I can tell everyone is feeling this one hard. Full buck moon, you are one wild beast.
So I get to thinking. Mentally detoxing. Emotionally cleansing. Spiritually undressing.
At what point does a man break?
When do you compromise your morals for your wants?
Who declares what the morals should even be?
What makes them superior?
If I break I break. In a sense, everyone “wants” the underdog to win, but to what degree? No one wants the underdog to win over them. Am I right?
These are all thoughts I have as I travel and see the world around me. Everyone’s an outlaw in one form or another. If we judge others based on what we consider is right or wrong, we fail to see the problem in the world today. I’m all for standing up for yourself, and speaking your truth. I’m no better than you are. I’m not giving myself any titles, although I can relate to many. I’m just me. One life one chance. That’s my motto. As I’m progressing through the years and experiences, I’m growing in love and resilience. I feel vulnerable and free.
When you enter a more conscious realm, you will find that you actually stop to ask yourself why you make decisions or do things? Always ask why? Questions. They are powerful to discover your deeper truth. Questions. Ask them. How does one discover the truth? By asking, learning, understanding, applying and teaching. NOT by judging.
This is something I’m becoming more familiar with after many hardships and confusion.
Of course there are times that I lose hope in humanity, and then I take a break from people only to realize we’re all in this together. At any given point you can experience shock, disbelief, heartache and pain. Only love and time can make that go away.
Vibrate so high that toxic people in your life fall back, because they no longer know how to approach you -unknown
On another note, someone recently tried to pull a fast one on me. I’ll spare you the details, but it was a powerful learning lesson to be had. In the midst of the moment, I felt defeated and dazed. It triggered my thoughts and dampened my spirit. I cried so much my eyes were sunken and my face was sore the following day. I woke up and cried some more. I was in disbelief that someone wanted to crush my dream, but mainly because my dream was to give back to others. It was the first time in a while that I was really making moves to give towards a cause greater than myself. I know the universe places you where you need to be at the time you need to be there, so I have trust. I trust in my intentions. I trust in love. I trust in people. I always told myself that no matter how cruel this world can be, you must never let it jade you. Trust.
These are the valleys and hills of life, as my dear friend refers to our ups and downs.
With all of that being said, I want to share another moment I had in Cuba not too long ago. My friend and I were cruising around Old Havana looking for a place to eat, when two beautiful afro cuban women approached us. Since I speak Spanish we immediately started chatting it up, and they came with us to have a drink at one of the local restaurants. She ordered a Cuba Libre, to which I asked why they called it that? Libre means free, so why is this national rum and cola drink called “Free Cuba?” She smiled with sparkles in her eyes. I smiled too. She explained, “ we call it Cuba Libre because we like to think we are a free country.”
Perspectives. I see them.
In a country deemed communist by the world, you have to ask how they personally feel about the circumstances. Has the embargo freed them or imprisoned them? With smiles and love galore, I can only wonder what they are truly feeling.
Her name is Laura, and she spoke of love and the will to be free. She was my muse for this post. I shot her as we waited for our drinks. Laura, keep on shining girl.
When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you achieve it
Smile more. I keep a smile because it feels better than a frown. I don’t always smile because I’m happy. I smile because it’s contagious. It makes others feel good. It’s the most positive, impactful, and powerful universal language, no matter where you happen to be in this world.
On the contrary, cry more. I cry all the time. I cry when I watch videos of Unicef making peace in war zones. I cry when I see the media focusing on hate. I cry when there’s nothing I can do. I cry when I feel the world is crumbling down on me. Hell, I even cry when I watch Disney movies. They say it’s both a blessing and a curse to feel things so very deeply. In my case, it’s definitely true. I cry with joy as well.
I feel things to a point where my heart is going to burst, and all of my cells are intoxicated with love. I love to a degree, where my love would never flee.
I love to love
And so this brings me back to a conversation with my friend. As I burst into tears over the phone, he immediately consoled me and then with a more serious voice, he told me “your not allowed to cry, you live in Hawaii.” Just the words I needed to hear. I laughed. I cried some more and I felt much better. As I express my gratitude daily for all that I have, and do, I sometimes fail to realize the bigger picture. Living in Hawaii is a luxury in itself, but it’s not everything. My being is the basis for something more grand. It inspires me. It makes me want to inspire others. It challenges me. My being is solely for the purpose of creating experiences and growing through them, as well as helping others grow.
I want to be a great one.
Isn’t that what we all want?
At the end of my life I truly want to know that I used every ounce of creativity and love. I want to know that I never sold out, but that I was true to me.
If this post touches you please feel free to share it. Thank you dearly for feeling this moment with me. I will always give it to you straight with no chaser.
Ps. This quote by lady gaga is pinned to a digital sticky note on my desktop… it inspires me to be true when I write. Let it inspire you.
“When you make music or write or create, it’s really your job to have mind-blowing, irresponsible, condomless sex with whatever idea it is you’re writing about at the time. ”
– Lady Gaga
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The photos in this post were shot by me, and the photos of me were shot by my journey partner and dear friend, River Le. We used my canon with a 24-70 lens.